in this madness-filled world, no one is going to find you unless you let them
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message delivered. ever experienced receiving a text message shaped like a dagger. i have. it cuts me right through. i didn’t even finish reading the rest of the message.
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paulo coelho writes in his book: the valkyries - “why do people kill the things they love?”
i also want to know why because i did. i threw the things i love the most and i hurt the people i love the most.
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because i don’t get angry, i thought others don’t too. i was wrong.
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i used to think people have an infinite amount of patience, but i was mistaken. maybe i was just dreaming.
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i can forgive anyone. in fact i can forgive whatever wrong that they do. but not me. or maybe i was just bluffing. because i don’t know.
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i was looking for someone who can understand me. but who can? i don’t even understand me, who else will?
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is this natural? when you hurt others, you get hurt too?
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so this is how to drive people away..but why?
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is this because.. yes it is.
i don’t want someone to take your place in my life.
(but maybe i was just defending myself)
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lastly.
kung ayaw may dahilan, kung gusto palaging merong paraan.
pano kung hindi mo alam kung gusto mo, o kung ayaw mo?
palagi pa ring may dahilan?
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this is the song that plays in my life:
viva la vida - coldplay.
“i used to rule the world, seas would rise when i gave the word…”
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now playing:
saying goodbye - new years day
this is me saying goodbye
but not just for tonight
this is the final exit
i should have made
so long ago
why did i wait…?